Opportunites

Firstly, and you can accuse me of being arrogant for thinking people actually read this, but to whoever has read the first post, I just want to apologise for being so down and open about things; I'm well aware that people don't necessarily agree with blog entries such as that, but I wanted to give hope and raise awareness about something very close to me. However, if I offended you then I apologise, I didn't mean to.

Anyway, I'm home at the moment for 4 weeks; they say home is where the heart is and I completely agree...I've learnt to love Southampton, I've met some amazing people and have done some great things, but Epsom is home. I went shopping with my sister on Saturday and it was brilliant; I didn't buy a lot, tbh, I can't afford to! But it was 2 hours or so of sisterly bonding and I cannot tell you how much that meant. Han (my sis) always says she wishes she had a younger sibling; I always wish I had an older one...someone who could have guided me through my teenage years when quite frankly I was a bit of a mess! I said to my mum on Saturday that this is the first time in my life where I've actually been happy. I feel stronger, much more confident and able to face the challenges that life throws at me. I've waited so long to feel like this and now I do, I want to push on, carry on, utilise this sense of optimism. I'm not invincible, I'm human...I'll never change the world, but I can contribute to it. I want to be able to look back on my life and feel satisfied that I did everything I could to be happy and did all the things I ever dreamed of doing. I'd rather try and fail than fail to try :)